. . . Another emotional outpouring

I don’t think that I’ve ever had something hold me captive as much as “Brokeback Mountain”. Yeah, sure, I’ve been captivated by different things. . .musicals, people, something shiny. But for some unforeseen reason, this movie touches someplace deep in my soul. Someplace that hasn’t seen the light of day in years. Maybe it’s the jagged truth of finding love and it never coming to fruition, or the deep pangs of not knowing if you picked the right path. It’s so hard tell what strikes a chord deep inside someone and how they will react.
I’ve been so engulfed with this story that I went out today and bought the book. It may be under 100 pages, but it is one of the best stories that I’ve read in quite a while. It has me thinking day and night, and not only about the story. About me and what my future holds. I usually don’t think about myself that often. Sounds funny, but true. I’m usually too worried about other people and where they’re going, how they’re doing, what their future holds, if they’re going to be alright, if they’re going to make it. I haven’t really taken time to see where I’m heading. I’ve been too busy shining the light down the path for other people that I haven’t taken the time to shine the light down my own path and see where it’s heading.
It’s time to take control of my path, and have it go the way that I want. To have what I’ve wanted for years. Not hope that it will somehow just appear to me, and meet me in the middle of the road. Constant improvement, things that will make me happy, someone that will love me faithfully and blindly. Is this too much to ask for? Yes! Is this too much to work for and achieve? NO! I can’t just stand idly by and let life move around me. . . .”Stop the world, I want to get on!”